sunday afternoon muse

If you’ve been married for a long time, you have a double -wide sense of what you can do.  A built in cushion to life’s bumps, falls and blows. 

When you gather yourself up to do something- you’re really gathering up yourself and your other- the team.  It is so automatic, so innate- that you think you are really just gathering up yourself.

Once that half of you is gone, it takes a while to get a sense of your new proportions.  Likely, there will be some doors that are too heavy to open, but there may be some that would have been too narrow to fit your double-wide self through.    This new identity won’t always be predominantly smaller than it was; it will morph, adapt- and new surfaces will grow where the old edge was.  One day it will just look different- not less than. 

Curious to see

  -felicia