Maybe today the grief is getting closer to that marrow. When I am hurt - how I wish Loren was here! He would tell me if I'm being ridiculous, but he would also hold me and love me anyways. He would listen to me.
And when I was not being ridiculous- he would be on my side, defending me in spirit. Maybe he still is.
It's a challenging morning/afternoon. I had to park the Santa Fe for awhile before I was good to drive again. I probably need to be absolutely flustered and upset before I get to the point where I'll just cry...and so I am grateful. It has a purpose and it will be good for me.
But this is pretty damn hard.
I don't mean to offend anyone - it's just the way it is.
And I guess God wanted me to spend the past hour with just Him for company.
It is enough.